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Nicole Ryan

2022 NYC Marathon


Join Me in Supporting the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

I'm participating in the  2022 NYC Marathon to fight suicide and support AFSP's bold goal to reduce the suicide rate 20% by 2025!!!!

This is my first marathon ever and it is an honor to run it with Team AFSP! Seeing as I’ve completed 10 Overnight Walks which are16-20 miles dusk til dawn; I couldn’t think of another organization I’d want to run for. I know that the training and everything else leading up to race day will be one of the greatest mental and physical challenges of my life, so it’s only fitting that it’s to benefit suicide prevention. This cause is so very meaningful to me, as many know, and for numerous reasons. For a friend that took his own life. For friends that have lost loved ones to suicide, or those that have/had their own struggles. But most of all...because on numerous occasions, I almost ended my story. I struggled tremendously on and off for well over 10 years, and I still face some challenges, especially during the winter season. It didn’t matter that I was a three-sport scholar athlete; member of two honor societies; recipient of the Marine Corps distinguished athlete award; or that I had a solid core of family, friends, teachers, and coaches that cared greatly about me. I still struggled. Anxiety and severe depression had become dibilitating and I often felt like I was nothing but a burden to those around me. 

The last two years of my life challenged me in ways I could’ve never fathomed, but I know I’m still here for many reasons. Besides, what good is all of the experience in the dark, if I can’t use it to light the way for others? There is no shame in struggling, and it shows great strength to seek help. I hope to help others not allow temporary circumstances lead to a permanent decision. If I had, I would’ve never learned the joys of: becoming an aunt and Godmother, a varsity soccer coach/role model; or all that comes with being comfortable in my own skin and learning to truly love myself and therefore attracting the same. I am the author of my story, and my story is not over. 

Besides, there are far too many “firsts” I still need to experience; sunrises and sunsets to capture; dogs to be pet; craft brews to taste; and smiles to leave behind. 

What makes this even more special is that my girlfriend will also be running (for St. Jude), and is my inspiration for getting this charity entry.


“I know hearing "it gets better" can quickly grow old, but the fact that I'm still breathing represents more than just another line to be told. My scars, they speak of a darker past, and how I used to deal. My ink depicts a strong will to last, and a mission to help others heal. I'm still here for a reason, that I certainly know, and by telling my story, hope is what I strive to show.”

Please help me reach my goal by clicking the "Donate" button on this page. All donations are 100% tax deductible and benefit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), funding research, education, advocacy, and support for those affected by suicide.

Thank you for your support!